So I hate hearing myself back, does anyone else? I mean it troubles me so much and I know I should be proud of my music no matter how good it is. I just struggle to find some peace and solace in my music. See I never wanted to sing, It’s not where I feel happy in my church. It’s more a need than a want, I mean I can’t find anyone else I trust enough with the songs to do them justice. I fully understand how John Fogerty felt with Creedence and how he used to control the whole process of how that music came out.
I have been toying with the idea of putting a band together and trying to add more layers to the music but again I feel control just smashes in and I’m so protective of the music. I know its kinda silly but these songs are my journal and my life journey that I live every day. I mean give me a topic, any everyday topic and I couldn’t write a thing about it, but as soon as I look inside me and what’s going on with me, it just flows so naturally. So from there, it becomes very personal.
I guess I need to let go at some point of all the negative feelings I have towards what I do and just try to embrace my Voice and the fact that as soon as I release the music it doesn’t belong to me anymore and belongs to the people who listen to it every day and hopefully take something from it that helps.
Anyway as always thanks for listening, supporting and being chill with me!
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